I Am Confident

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I Am Confident #day2 #10DayIAmChallenge

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Here I am, telling myself lies. Because I know I’m not. I wish I was. I mean, isn’t that why I’m telling myself things like this, because I’m not these things? After all, we remind ourselves things when we forget them, right? And why do we forget? Because we didn’t believe it in the first place.

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At least that’s what I first thought when I started doing these affirmations. But it’s not like this at all. We tell them to ourselves because they are VERY true but for some reason, because of the stories life tells us and that we believe, we’ve forgotten, and forgetting is okay! We don’t know how beautiful and awesome and loving and good we are. Because it’s easier for our one-upping, goal-oriented brain to ignore what does work and focus on what doesn’t. And who is this voice that always feels right? It’s not your true voice, it’s a bad habit, and bad habits get picked up by good people all the time. It doesn’t mean that you’re bad too.

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I Am Confident. Why is that so hard to write, to say? Because I’m afraid of what confidence may bring. Because I’m used to this part of me that’s frustrated and scared and weird. Because the sound of my own voice—no matter how negative it is—seems like it will always be more comforting and more true than any positive statement or person outside of myself could do for me. But it won’t always be this, I believe that. So maybe that’s the kernel of these affirmations —hope for positive change, hope for peace and love and joy and fulfillment.

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I know how you feel. These affirmations aren’t magic. They’re not an answer, they’re a way. A new system. A good habit.

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So say it with me: I Am Confident.

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Even if you aren’t. Especially if you aren’t. You’re not lying to yourself, you’re finally telling yourself the truth. Just today believe your I Am statement, even if you 100% don’t. That negative ego voice of yours will try and butt in. Don’t let it. And in the end, what’s it worth to hold on to those negative thoughts and feelings? They aren’t THE truth, it’s A truth, albeit a distorted one; and a truth is just an opinion and opinions can change.

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My I Am needs an extra oomph today so I’m adding on to it—I Am Confident that you all will find a moment of peace and self-forgiveness today, and when that moment comes, just BE it. Let it happen. Don’t judge it or throw it away. You ARE good and healthy and beautiful. Have a wonderful day.

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